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Saturday, November 30 haha.. first time using this journal thingy... quite interesting manz...well.. first.. happy becoz i at last able to learn to break free from myself.... i decide to change to a better person... in the past.. i am such a pessimistic person.. such a... hmm.. sad? well..wateva.. i wan to change... change to one that is happy? although i sux at times.. sumtimes with those kind of suckish attitude.. you guys still bear wif it... i am really glad to know you all.. ppl like jinglin, cass, yingxian, and the boys.. the grp la... you all are indeed frienz.. i never regret knowing you all.. i wan to say sorry to you guys.. and assure you all... i will really change... when i went to pasir ris today.. i met my senior la.. she told me everything about how you all feel towards me.. want to know how she know? haha.. she go tok to that shen si ji jiao of mine.. yingxian lor... at first when i heard about it.. hmm.. muz admit i was veri sad la.. but i sort of expected it liaoz... then she told me.. i cannot be like this loz.. muz open up.. no point staying in the past.. so sumthings to share wif my frienz.. hm.. life muz always go on~~ well.. then i stay there until afternoon around 3 or 4 plus.. well.. i wasn't shock la.. but then.. i din care about her.. she sat there watching tv... i dun care lorz.. hmm.. i think i really got start to change.. haha.. if let say i neva change.. i think my face would really go black lorz.. then very long face.. haha.. but jux now.. hmm.. realli dun care... din even want to look at her.. anyway.. jinglin.. and others.. i realli sort out my thought liaoz.. i would let my daddy go on lorz.. if they want marry also none of my business.. haha.. then i thinking.. maybe when i start to work liaoz.. i got enugh money .. then i go buy another house.. haha.. when the time comes.. u all can join me also hee... then those want to li jia chu zou can cum too... i welcome manz... anyway..want to say thanx to all my friends manz... jinglin.. i hope you not fed up with me liaoz.. ehz.. want to say thank you to you... for all the words u kept repeating.. haha muz say i realli damn irritating at times... stubborn cass.. ehz.. no need feel scare to talk to me.. scare i sad sad.. then u cannot console? haha.. no la.. you tok to me.. i will feel better de.. yingxian.. thanz a lot.. i know you repeat a lot of da dao li to me until you sianz.. haha.. thanz arhz.. and also sorry... well... the rest... muz say this bunch of you... really fantastic group... be assure... i will really change... well.. okie.. i end here liaoz.. comment horz... hehe.. buaiz.... =) Heli Dont ask me why 8:43 PM how to publish? testing horz.. Heli Dont ask me why 8:10 PM |
Personal archives 2002.11 .: Thoughts :. I know i have to let you go.. Everyone tells me this is so... See, my life has stopped since You passed away Sometimes i can't bear it Even for one more day.. Thoughts of you consume me Every second of everyday I just want it back you know The way things used to be... In my life you held the key And now i have just your memory And though this is not enough for me This is how it has to be... I need to laugh again without feeling guilty You aren't here... I feel so alone & full of tear It's so terribly hard when all that's Left is tears... Mum, i wish you are here Just plainly listening to me... I promise to keep you safe Where you have always been of course In my heart, that's the place... |